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[24 Apr 2005|06:41pm] TIME TO SLIT MY WRISTZ. 1 fell into fantasy

[27 Mar 2005|04:11pm] [ mood | productive ] [ music | kill the rock / msi ] I love Jessica Edwards! <3 Happy Easter. 2 fell into fantasy

[14 Mar 2005|02:21pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | days of the pheonix / afi ] THAT WAS DISGUSTING. fell into fantasy

[13 Mar 2005|11:38pm] [ mood | hopeful ] [ music | walls / emery ] Highlight of my weekend: making Chelsi pee her pants. fell into fantasy

[12 Mar 2005|11:56pm] [ mood | annoyed ] [ music | burn piano island / blood brothers ] "Sam, you're cool, but you need to stop looking so depressed, talk more, and stop wearing such dark colors cause you know.. the whole goth thing isn't working." Do you know what I hate? really judgemental people that don't know you, at all. I talk to people I like. p.s. You're not funny, either. 5 fell into fantasy

[10 Mar 2005|08:01pm] [ mood | thoughtful ] [ music | miss america / something corporate ] I've been in such a bad mood all day. All I keep thinking about is my brothers accident from Tuesday. My dad just came home, he went to the car to look for some paperwork for the insurance company. He said the side of the car they showed on the news was the better looking one. The passenger side is a mess, and the roof is caved in. There's practically nothing left of the front, and glass and metal is everywhere. he said he was cutting up his hand just trying to get papers out of the glove compartment. ugh. this makes me sick. I think I've finally fully grasped the saying "No one is promised tomorrow." I hope he realizes how lucky he is to be able to walk away from the accident. The police, EMT's and just everyone is surprised he's still alive. I am extremly thankful. At the end of social studies, I was talking to Heather. We got into a conversation about how neither of us really like Brittany all that much. Mario was walking back to his seat, and Heather said "I don't like him either" He heard her. He turned his head and looked. lmfao. I laughed and said "yeah, me too." And for once, I wasn't lying. I havn't liked him "inthatway" since.. December. but now, I don't hate him but, I don't like him as a person in general either. Finally. I guess with all the events of this week, I've realized that life is too short to keep bullshitting to people about how much you hate someone, regretting everything you did and didn't do, living in the past, and wasting you're time on bad people that don't deserve anyones time of day. I'm not going to waste my time anymore. 1 fell into fantasy

[09 Mar 2005|07:30pm] [ mood | discontent ] [ music | vindicated / dashboard ] Well, turns out my brother is okay. Thankfully. His car is totaled, but oh well. The EMT's all told him they were surprised he's alive. To be completely honest, I am too. His airbag, and seatbelt saved his life. Once his car was turned over, he crawled around for a bit, trying to get out, but couldn't. Numerous cars pulled over and helped get the door open. Based on xrays, his nose is broken. and he said his arm hurt really bad which he's getting checked out tomorrow. Other then that, last night he walked in the house like he was completely fine. So this morning, I picked up Kristin around 7:30 and we headed to the school. The only other person there for the trip was Tom Wolff. We talked to him for a little, other people eventually showed up and the stupid custodians forced us to go in the cafeteria. By 8:30, everyone was there. We all got on the bus and sat there for 20 minutes waiting for it to leave. Ms maio came on, and told us we wern't going. Ms.Abrams wouldn't let us. RAWR. So, since no one had their schoolwork and we were already signed out of all our classes, Ms.Abrams agreed to letting us stay in the Photography room all day and have "Photo the day away." The trip was rescheduled for April 6th and today was pretty decent. I thought it was going to suck, but it didn't. Ms Maio bought us bagels, pizza and soda. I hung out with kristin all morning. We walked around the halls for about 40 minutes just taking pictures. I got 2 rolls of film done today, and I developed both. I made a few prints, but only one came out decent which was one of Chris that I took during passing time. I also hung out with Kevin, Vikki and Peter. It was a fun day. 1 fell into fantasy

[08 Mar 2005|03:25pm] [ mood | worried ] [ music | slow down / the academy is ] The second I walk in my house, my grandma says to me "Nick got into a car accident" "WHAT!" "his car flipped over." As soon as I heard that, I thought the worst. Then I saw my mom, she told me he was okay for the most part and she spoke to him when he was on his way to the emergency room. I don't know much about it, other then that it happened sometime before 1:00 near Glen Cove. My dads with him now and the hospital is gonna release him. the only xray they're doing is on his nose, which I think is pretty stupid. My cousin called up saying his car was on news12. I watched it, unnfortunitly. Fucking sick. It was upside down, and the front is all messed up. I hope my brother doesn't see that, It'll just make him more sick to his stomach. He just had new tires put on and was outside waxing it yesterday. ugh. I'm just glad he's okay. On the other hand, I'm hoping for school tomorrow. I'm going on the Photo trip to the City. Although, since I'm obviously notin much of a good mood anymore, I'm not looking forward to it as much as I was earlier. 5 fell into fantasy

[04 Mar 2005|02:39pm] [ mood | okay ] [ music | watch the sky / something corporate ] I want a reply to this entry. "She looks so rebellious, like she wants to kill everyone" I can't begin to tell you how many times people tell me this. And I don't get it. WHY?! why does everyone think that about me? someone please tell me, cause it's really annoying. Alvee Chowdhury: because your so GRR. Alvee Chowdhury: GRR IM EMO AND I WEAR ALL BLACK AND I DONT TALK TO PEOPLE GRR! Alvee Chowdhury: GRR I WRITE EMO LYRICS ON MY AGENDA BOOK GRR! Alvee Chowdhury: I HAVE MASHED POTATOES IN MY HAIR GRR! 7 fell into fantasy

[03 Mar 2005|10:45pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | aim snap fall / spill canvas ] Some people need to grow up and stop acting so god damn childish. This is high school, OF COURSE there's going to be cliques. Shut up, and deal with it. You made this into a bigger deal, then it had to be. VictoriaHa5AScrt: the funny thing .. even after all this.. it'll still be CVSM Get over it. fell into fantasy

[27 Feb 2005|05:40pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | mix tape / brand new ] Last day of vaction. And I'm really not looking forward to going back to school tomorrow. I'm sick, again. Of course. All I did today was go for a walk to Oxhead, which probably made this stupid cold worse. I'm not in the mood, I don't feel good and I havn't touched my homework all day. Come to think of it, I havn't even opened my backpack since the last Thursday that we had school. Figures. If I'm remembering correctly, I think all I have is Math and a stupid health assignment that I havn't started.. and it needs to be typed. Mr. Geismar, you suck. I started my greatest journal up today. my last entry from it was dated January 25th. I'm gonna start writing in there again, and still remain at LJ also. This is because I can't write what I want in here. I hate knowing friends from school, and just anyone who has a computer and a brain has access to it. Which is why these entries are so stupid, and boring, and pointless and why you shouldn't waste your time reading this.... if any of you even are. 2 fell into fantasy

[25 Feb 2005|11:20pm] [ mood | hyper ] [ music | the new year / death cab ] wsedrftgyhujikol ! yeah. I'm hyper. Today was a good day. I went to Vikkis with Mare, Sam and Jessica. CHELSI CAME HOME! yeaahhhhh she eventually came over too. OOOOT. We told her stories. but they were a bunch of lies. lmao. I'm hyper. and I want jello. but is there any in my house? of course not. We went to the mall, which was pointless but whatever. I saw IT. and that was cool. Yeah, today was a good day. ED45RFT6GYHUJIKOL 2 fell into fantasy

[24 Feb 2005|12:27pm] [ mood | good ] [ music | slow motion / third eye blind ] Yesterday, was so much fun. I met Mare on Mark Tree Road, and on the way... I fell right on my ass on a sheet of ice. Yeah, wasn't too cool. We walked to Vikkis and Sam and Jessica were there. We put on makeup and looked for a Pizza place to call. Lmao. Jess wound up calling Information and asking them for "Guiseppe's" in lakegrove. The lady said "Was that, Too Chubby.. in lakegrove?" Seriously. How could you get TOO CHUBBY out of GUISEPPES. Then, she told us "No. but I have one in Central Beach" Then she said Centereach, and Jess hung up on her. lmao. Once we eventually got our pizza, Brianna showed up. Her and Jess went to blockbuster to look for The Notebook, AND THEY DIDN'T HAVE IT. RAWR. Over the phone, I told Jess there was an interview with Derek Jeter on tv. "OMG. PUT THE PHONE UP TO THE TV!!" LMAO. I ran out of the room. Cause I was about to piss my pants. So we watched Now and Then. What a good movie. her dad came over and gave each of us a bowl of popcorn. He is so cool. and he gave us all either a nail or a screw. After the movie, we went back to hang out in Vikkis room. Then, her mom came in and said "Who's having icecream?". The end. <3 Joan and Barry Greenfield <3 4 fell into fantasy

[22 Feb 2005|10:31pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | no lies just love / bright eyes ] Today was kind of useless, but whatever. I finished cleaning my room after ripping the whole thing apart. Eventually, I got tired of sitting online and talking to no one, so I went for a walk. I went to Oxhead with my camera so I could take pictures for class. I doubt they'll come out since I used the shittfilm, but oh well. We'll see. I was planning on going in the woods and taking pointless pictures in there also, but then little retards came and ruined it for me. Fags. When I decided to leave, and started walking home, I was already off school property... and I thought "what the hell? I was at oxhead... and I didn't go on the swings?" who does that. really. so I went back, just to go on the swings. then left, for good. I came home, and didn't do much. I went through a shitload of old pictures. and I mean old, 1st,3rd, 5th,6th 7th and 8th grade. Half of them are blackmail, so I started putting them online. But I'm not even close to being finished with that yet. I just had a talk with Vikki. She got me thinking about stuff. We planned out Spawn of Satin's death. She thinks he looks flammable, so.. we're gonna light him on fire, and throw him at Alvee's house.. because it's better then eggs. And it's gonna leave an imprint of a hippo. It's going to be alot of fun, I promise. Join us if you'd like. I realized with just the start of this school year, how much has changed. Everything did. Or almost everything, for me atleast. And I suppose they did for the better... but things are just really different. Thinking back to how things were a year ago today, I never would've thought any of that would've happened.. or changed into what they are now. I'll stop. Cause I don't know where I'm going with this. And you don't know who or what I'm talking about. And I want the Summer. 1 fell into fantasy

[22 Feb 2005|09:04am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | every reason to / from autumn to ashes ] Stupid snow. I hate it. And I want Summer to come, right now. Before Alvee left for Upstate, he left me a message telling me that I have to walk past his house everyday, to make sure it wasn't egged. And if it is, I have to call him. and then "Lick that shit clean, bitch." Will do. Yeah, so, now there's no Alvee or Chelsi. How much better could this vacation really get? Atleast I've still got Mare and Vikki. Although, Vikki has to live in... fuckin Jerusalem. Looks like I've got the week off from babysitting. Thank God. But this stupid lady could've dropped my money off Saturday like she said she would. Thanks alot, jerk. Yesterday I spent the afternoon cleaning my room. I ripped the entire thing apart, and I'm still not done. So I guess there isn't much going on for the rest of the week. I'm planning on finishing my room, walking around probably by myself.. to get my photo project out of the way, and eventually hanging out with Vikki one of these days. Then Saturday is Sam Noll's sweet16, and by Sunday Chelsi will be home, so I'm definitly not sitting here wasting the last day of Vacation. I guess... I'm done. fell into fantasy

[20 Feb 2005|10:04am] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | down set go / underoath ] My dad, is so stupid. Me: Hey, when your done with this tv, can I order a movie? Him: Yeah. What movie? Me: Garden State Him: What's it about? Me: Uh... I don't know Him: Then go ask your mother Me: Why? Him: Because I don't know what it's about. You might be trying to order something rated XXX. 3 fell into fantasy

[19 Feb 2005|05:03pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | somebodys baby / phantom planet ] Last night was Amanda's sweet16. The ride there was pretty funny. Mare drove me and Vikki.. and she just argued with her mom the entire time of where to go. We drove past the place about 5 times before we finally saw it. It was fun, I had a good time. They tried to get me to dance, but the most I did was the cha cha slide. Good enough. Also, Vikki and I started throwing glow sticks around the table, at peoples heads but mostly Pete. he threw them back. Eventually, I decided to tie 3 of them together. He was acting soooo tough. Like he was going to outstand this weapon of mass destruction, and he didn't. It exploded in his face, and it was just the funniest thing I had seen all night.... but then I died cause I was choking. Yeah, so, I'm still sick. But do I care? of course not. Which is why i decided to walk around today in 26 degree weather. Or something of that sort. I met Alvee, then we met up with Mare and Nick who were standing outside of Sam's car with her and Greg. We talked to them, they drove away and the 4 of us walked to Chelsi's so Mare could get her Catch Phrase ticket. She said it was on her dresser, and it was no where to be seen. Alvee wound up finding it, and mare wrote Chelsi a nasty letter. On the way out, she found her socks, so she took her socks... and started going through all her shit. Why? Idk. she's Marianne. Then we all walked back home, and now I'm here, bored. I was planning on ordering Garden State. but, of course in the middle of typing this my dad has to go take the Tv with the iO box. Grrrr. fell into fantasy

[17 Feb 2005|01:49am] [ mood | sick ] Hey, guess what. Today, I passed my first math test... of the entire year. With a 77. It is currently on display at locker 444. So, that was a good morning. I made a few pictures in Photo, and one of them is of Alvee walking down Henry road. Lmao, he's so dark.. in the pic.. You can barely see his face. Brownie. I found that pretty funny. In lunch, I was sitting on the benches with Jackie. I see Heather get up, she's about to start walking, and then... she just.. collapsed. to the floor. Apparently she tripped over her calculator. I couldn't help but laugh, the mental image was so funny. She was really pissed. I hope she's not mad at me for laughing but I just couldn't help myself. <3. After school Chelsi and I walked with Mare to her house. Hung out for a little, went to wallmart and big lots to get food. We came to house, eventually left cause Chelsi had to babysit and I walked Mare to the woods. At 5:30, I fell asleep and didn't wake up till after 11. That was pretty nice. Minus that I'm sick. My mom insists on me staying home tomorrow, but I'm not going to. I'll just stay home Friday, cause that makes more sense. Goodnight. 1 fell into fantasy

[14 Feb 2005|06:36pm] [ mood | frustrated ] [ music | paint it black / vanessa carlton ] Saturday Eleni's sweet 16. Chelsi and I went to Mares beforehand, and she did my hair. It was hot. We got there around 7, and it was Greeks Galore. We hung out with Vinny Dima and made fun of him cause he's a Jock. I had a good time, sitting with Chel, Mare, Keri, Amanda, Ali and Steve. They did the Greek dance.. like 5 times. Cause they're crazy, and fuckin.. Greek. And do you know what Greeks throw for 'Good Luck' ? MONEY. ... what the hell! Eleni's dancing with her friends, and her parents just come over, and start throwing money on her. Ridiculous. I got a candle =] and a rose <3 which was cool. It was fun. The end. Sunday. The usual. Walked around with my... gang. Got breakfast and wound up at Vikkis. Then walked home with Alvee and Mare. I purposly came home early, around 5:30 to do my homework. And did I? No. Of course not. I didn't start it till 9:30. And when did I finish it? 1st period this morning. I am a lazy fuck. Today .. SUCKED. I woke up at 6, and missed my bus. But whenever I wake up at... 6:25, I make it. How? idk. I didn't even realize today was Valentines day till I got into school this morning. heh. By 2nd period, I already wanted the day to be over. I found out I failed my math test. I really studied for that test too. I actually tried, for the first time this entire year. And I bombed it, terribly. That really got me angry, I can't fail A3 a second time around. No. I'm not gonna let that happen. I hope Ms. Cavallo doesn't call my house, she says she does that sometimes. And she knows I already took this class before. Fucking lovely. Photography. That, just made matters worse. I took about, half a roll of film at Eleni's sweet 16. the rest of that, and another full roll on Sunday. I developed them today. and did they come out? NO. and I know it did it right. It's that shitty generic film Ms. Maio sold to me. AND I BOUGHT FOUR OF THEM. ugh. Only about.. 6 pictures came out. OUT OF 48. err! "I'll call the company. theres something wrong with this film" is what she tells me. no shit, idiot. you should've done that a long time ago. Lunch, I got sang to cause my art table sent me a singing tellegram of 'build me up buttercup' hehe. Gym. I have a story. I was paying ping pong with Cynthia. And Marisol walks by with this.. gangster kid. And I mean, gangster. Accidentally, Cynthia hit the ball and it hit him RIGHT IN THE EYE. He was pretty much flipping out. and asked me who hit it. I couldn't help but laugh. I mean, a gangster, got hit in the eye with a ping pong ball. It was just funny. and then he yelled at me "WHAT. YOU THINK THIS SHIT IS FUNNY!?!" I said "....no" and stopped laughing. I was, scared shitless. He was so angry and I thought he was going to shoot me. or something. really. And then he kept cursing us out, and talking shit. I didn't say anything, I didnt even look at him, in fear of getting jumped, shot, or both. He kept giving us dirty looking.. and just kept on talking. about 5 or 10 minutes later, he walks up to cynthia and says something to her. Then, he says to me "HAHAHA. HAHA I HAD YOU GOING THERE FOR A FEW MINUTES DIDN'T I ?" lmao. That was, pretty funny. And cheered me up. Health, I slept through. And Geismar looks like a rapist. He put on some recording of some annoying lady, talking. He said it was supposed to relax us and releave stress. Yeah right. It only made me more frustrated to listen to that.. poop. 2 fell into fantasy

[11 Feb 2005|03:56pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | funeral of hearts / him ] Ugh. I suck. At life. Drawing/Painting - B Photography 1 - A+ Global 2 - B Earth Science - D Gym - C+ English - A Math A3 - F Oh well. Stupid Ms Krisa. She gives me a C+ because of my absenses, and told me if I make up a class she'd give me a B. I made up a class... and she still didn't give me a B. Jerk. I hate you. And fuck you Ms. Monthie. fell into fantasy

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